Good things are hard to come by. It applies to friends and partners. Friends can come and go as and when in your life. But true friends don't come so easily. Friends mostly care for themselves. But true friends makes a effort to care for you. Any girl in the street may be your girlfriend. But the right girl for you may not be on that street.

Am i going the right way? Or should i even start all this? This question has been ringing in my head for weeks, should i just give up and continue with my life or stay put on what i'm doing right now?

Decided to meet derrick at downtown east just now, slacked with Dora and Junkai went to get 'hoohoos' before slacking, went to pasir ris park to enjoy the strong wind, they told me many things bout her and stuff. Wanted to play pool actually, but the shop still close so we sat around there waiting for time to past.

Seeing you with him, makes me sad. But i guess it doesn't matter to you at all.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain, and no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same. These streets are filled with memories both good and pain that we once had. All I wanna do is love you but I'm the only one to blame, these scars will definately stay forever with me.In my eyes I'm screaming for a sight of you and tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through and I can't hold on to you. So I guess I'll be lonely It's all my fault i'm all to blame for letting it go so easily in the past. Chances don't come knocking twice, you've to make a wise choice before making a decision.

Life is miserable, or mayby is isn't great for me. Everyday i'm putting on a fake smile for you to see, all for a reason, for not letting you feel guilty. Initially it was though accepting it, but life still have to go on even though it didn't went the way i wanted.

After school met up with Ebebezer before going to shanding with the usual group ate, slack.. Happened to saw Angus at shanding chatted with him awahile before leaving. Out of sudden this school seems fuckup. And almost everyone has got a case in school, suspended, canning. Had random spot check yesterday, most of us got our phone confiscated for a day. Ebenezer's the worst, cig, itouch, Gerald lighter. Ebenezer 2 week suspension, Angus 1 month suspension. Tomorrow gonna be a short day, going gym after school and mayby meeting her up?

Recently have been paying attention in class, doing work that teachers give. I'm hoping that i can pass my 'n' level this year, So bascially nothing much happen in class today,after school had study time physics till 3.30. Left school met the rest, slack awhile then cab home with dora and gerald.

School was fine today, most of the teachers are already starting to teach except chinese. Today after school went to west plaza for 'hoohoo' and than to tampines with ben, dillon, gerald lastly jill, slack downstairs her house played music, 'hoohooed' and crap alot while waiting for derrick to arrive. After derrick arrive at t1, we walked to t1 to meet him to buy stuff at tampines mall, then took bus home from tampines. Recach home at, 5.30. Floorball 1st match at chua chu kang sports hall 2pm game, gonna meet peeps at 1pm before match and take a train there. Gym tomorrow after school.

In a blink of an eye it's already 2010 everthing started smoothly for me. Yesterday was the first day of school, pratically did nothing in the first period, except update our personal infromation to the teachers than slacked the whole day, talk throught out all the lesson as teachers all didn't teach. Today, VP had a long talk with all of us, than went back class for lessons, nothing unusual happen through out. After school 'hoohooed' with clique than off to shanding slack till 3 and off to home. Floorball training later in the evening.


It's A Brand New Start For All Of us.

Happy new year everyone. Its finally 2010. 2009 went by in a flash. Even before we knew it. Time passes when you look back right? I hope you all out there had a very very memorable and wonderful 2009.

Training ended at 10am, went to buy school books at popular i bought only maths textbook and cme inserts after that had lunch at westplaza then get 'hoohoos' before going home. OMG,school is starting in 6 more days :( 2 months of holiday just gone past in a flash a brand new year is coming, everything starts afreash. Gonna dye back my hair soon. Finally i understand whats happening after talking to gabriel just now spared him my 'hoohoos' too while we're talking. Lets pray hard and hope 2010 would be a better year for us.

Came back from malaysia yesterday at 9om, use computer awhile then sleep. Manage to get 'hoohoos' from malaysia, bought many things in KL wanted to buy something for her at first but didn't know if she'll accept it so after much consideration didn't buy it. I keep thinking of her through out the whole week, thinking of why the sudden change etc...


I Just Can't Believe You're Gone

I'll be going to malaysia tomorrow, and will be back on the 18th.Today gonna camp at home to pack my stuff, haven even started to pack a single bit. Later on gonna 'hoohoo', for now going to have my lunch.



When I'm With You I'll Make Every Second Count Cos I miss You

Day 8, in the afternoon went downtown to get 'hoohoos' and bought lunch home. Yesterday's training was tiring, heard that my floorball league would be push to a later date. Get jersey yesterday too, halfway during training went out of school 'hoohoo-ed' and then went back school. Training ends at 9.45pm on the way home, my mind was blank, mayby it's because i'm exhausted from training but it's for sure that i miss you.



I'm Fooling Myself, She'll Never Be Mine It's Too Late Now.

Just came back from training at siglap, later on gonna have club training later in the evening. I guess training is the only way that can make me forget everything, i can't sleep everynight. I don't know why, i don't like sleeping early?
Or i just can't fall asleep. And if i fall asleep.I always tend to dream of... everyday i'm hoping to see one of your replies on my phone. I'll always remember the times when we message each other till late in the night? You accompany-ing me when i can't fall asleep? All these things are just little things you made that make me can't forget you.




All That I'm After, Is A Live Full Of Laughter

Will be off to malaysia on the 12th till the 18. Everyone is telling me to give up on her, but i don't know if i'm able to do that, this is the first time i'm like fking sad over a girl? Everynight before i sleep, my mind is always thinking about me&you, didn't know that last thursday was the last time i'm seeing you, if not i'll treat you 101% better making sure that you enjoy every moment when you're with me.


I've Been Addicted To You, Goodbye My Lover.

Day 5, still trying to get over it. Went out with sister, cousin and jordon, bought 'hoohoo' before meeting jordon, went to play pool at somerset played for 1hour before meeting sis. Playing pool just reminds me of her, after meeting sis went to eat macdonal before going ion to shop. Anyway, it was nice knowing you as a friend, the only time i really talk to you was during OBS second night.
imissyou


I Must've Been High To Say You And I Weren't Meant To Be And Just Wasting My Time

Seriously, no mood. While they're Out enjoying themself, We're here suffering.
Didnt know what to do 4days, without you? Its miserable, i'll just have to carry on living without you. You left a huge impact in my life.
nomoodnomoodnomoodnomoodnomoodnomood! I only know i fucking miss you.

You Played Me Out. Its like overnight you've change into a different person.

Morning had floorball training, started at 9 and ends at 12. Whole training could not get the drills right cos i can't even concentrate, and i'm feeling quite lost without you. Its been 2days since i heard your voice or get your messages and these 2days without you was lifeless, all i can do now is hoping that you'll reply me and telling me whats happening? After all i realise i love you deeply.


For Me Time Is The Only Medicine, Only Time Can Heal The Pain I'm Suffering Now

After all these times, i've actually found myself so devoted to you. I don't mind about the things you've done, all i want is for you to be yourself, Seriously, All these nights, chatting through messages really kept my heart warm. I could'nt think of anything except you. I kept checking my phone hoping for your replies or calls, but apparently you did'nt. All i want to say is im afraid i'll lose you.
iloveyou.


All These Great Times We've Spent Together, Its Never Enough.

Seriously i don't know what's happening? Can anyone tell me? It's like out of sudden all this things happen. Could not sleep yesterday, was thinking what had happen to us through out the night.
fuckit.


I Hope Its All A Dream, Everything Would Return back To Normal When I Wake Up